AWKWARD

       I am the type of person if I’m uncomfortable I tend to shy away like a turtle in its shell. I don’t deal well with awkwardness, if I’m not comfortable with where I am or who I’m with; I am not me. I don’t say much, I don’t do a lot of things that draw attention, so, I try to keep my existence down to like a zero. It is sad to say but very true. In the lecture yesterday, I could really relate to what the guy was saying. When he went to Northwestern and was put in a classroom with these super intelligent people, he felt kind of intimidated by the amount of knowledge that they knew, verses his small town education that he was used to. I definitely feel the same way when I came here to bridge.

        When I first walked in here I had the intentions of opening up to new experiences and new people but it was the total opposite. When we had our first discussion everyone sounded SO smart, it kind of made me feel like if I open my mouth something stupid might come out, so I decided to keep to quiet. You know that feeling when you are put in a position to do something and the person before you does and amazing job, and you’re thinking “How do I compete with that?” That is exactly how I feel in this class; I know it’s not a competition of who is smarter, but you don’t want to be the dumb one in the situation. Where I went to school most of the people I knew didn’t even think on the level that some of the people in this class does, and I respect that, but it opens up a whole new world for me and what I know. I don’t know if I was properly prepared for this but I’m ready to see what this college thing has in store for me.